All About Him…………

Hello everyone!  I trust all is well in your world since we last “met”.  This morning I am in the mood to vent a little.  Are there any men out there willing to give me their opinion?  If you read yesterday’s, and my very first, post you may have gotten the impression that I am aware of and comfortable with all of my man’s issues.  While I am aware of all of them, or at least I pray that I am after eight and a half years, my comfort level and acceptance of varies from time to time.  Again, I will chalk this up to woman’s prerogative, isn’t that handy?

I mentioned that he is very much a creature of habit and is leery on trying new things.  I have often told him that I already know who he will be in his old age because he is already an old man in many ways.  I will admit that there have been many times when this part of his personality has served me well.  But, on others, his insistence that we should limit our dates because it is cheaper to do just about anything at home, can, will and does drive me crazy.

On one hand I am immensely flattered that after all of these years staying home with me still satisfies him.  However, I am a very outgoing person and in addition to that I love to perform.  neither of these needs can be fulfilled at home.  He has always been very supportive of my writing and singing and at times has even been frustrated, on my behalf, at the lack of recognition of my talents.  Again this inspires in me such warm, good and loving feelings toward him that I am often consumed with the need to express my appreciation.  But, in reality how supportive can he truly be if there is such resistance to my going out to accomplish my goals?  Are the two things not as connected as I think they are?  Perhaps when he is reluctant to either go out with me or for me to go alone he hasn’t thought it out enough to realize that even subconciously he is blocking the path to my desire. 

Or, am I just benefitting?  That used to be a favorite phrase of my mother’s.  Perhaps I am just giving the benefit of the doubt where it is not truly warranted.  Whatever the reasons I remain confident in our love and his desire to see me happy.  I know that I love him above all and have accepted him into my heart as if he were born there.  So, there is no going back, on forward together.  Always together!

So, this is just another one of those things that we need to work on.  Any suggestions?  Anyone?

Peace